Feeling kinda out of it...then again I always am these days...Worrying about Vanessa...financial troubles...working...man I'm telling you that place gets worse and worse everyday. I don't like my schedule there and finally when I get used to it, they go on and change it up on me. And I feel like at times there I'm the only one working and stocking up there and everything. Today is like the worst. My monday. lol I hate Saturdays. I'm tellin' you I fuckin' HATE Saturdays there. The guys I work with are lazy. No good. And no money either. When I need it the most, its never there. I don't know. I just get tired of the same bullshit, ya know what I mean. I just got through with vacation and I alredy need another one. lol I don't care. Just as long as I get paid thats all that matters. Fuck the drama.

But yeah mostly financial troubles for me. No matter how far ahead I get theres always something that gets me far behind. I feel very used and ripped off at times wherever I go. At times I feel like everyones out to get me...like nobody's on my side. All alone...nobody's there for me...Its fine though. Don't know why I care. I've always been this way. Somedays I care and it gets to me and somedays I don't. And with my friend going through a rough time...idk I really hope things get better for her. I'd feel better is she were happy...Shit, one of us has to be happy at least...idk...

-Grayangel